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Myth1: “Just go for a run”

FYI… RORWFTTS(Ramblings On Running While Flying Through The Space)

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I met John, a total stranger, last night at a floating bar on the moon of Jupiter and he started telling me about how miserable his first golf experience on Mars was yesterday.

“You know, it was… miserable man. My buddies told me, ‘You just come out with us and swing dude. You will hit it right after couple of swings and you will have a time full of merriness.’ But no, I DID NOT have a time full of merriness. Even after 100 swings, I was not hitting the ball right, and I got so frustrated that I started kicking the ball with my shoes, and I got better scores that way.”

I looked at him intently and told him.

“That sounds like our ancestors who used to tell someone, ‘Just go out and run.’ Can you believe that we were that sort of dumb dumbs?”

“Exactly.”

And we cheered to the nothingness of Jupiter and chugged our garlic infused Kombucha.

Yeah, above story is completely fictional. But, looking at how Elon Musk is crushing it with Tesla, SpaceX, and Peter Diamandis is about to be mining rare minerals from flying asteroids, I think humanity might survive the doom of climate change and play golf on Mars someday in the future.

And I guarantee you that they will have above conversation. Well, some geeky ones will, I guess.

I mean, have you heard of anyone telling you about golf,

‘You just grab a swing and take a hit at the ball, just until you get it right.’?

If you have, I think you should sceram “IDIOT!!” and run away, cuz s/he’s got that rare virus that will make you good at nothing.

You don’t just swing golf clubs hoping to hit it right.
You don’t just take your free-kick hoping to bend it like Beckham.
You don’t just go out into the desert, without any preparation, and hope to survive.
You don’t ‘just program’ softwares.
You don’t ‘just do math.’
You don’t just wake up on the morning of marathon and hope to run the whole thing (it’s very possible to run the whole thing, but your body will be in a pain you could have never imagined for a looong time).
Yes, ‘just do it’ is a great start. It gets you off the couch. It gets your blood going.

But there comes a point, rather sooner than later, where you need to look back on your progress, rectify your approaches, and leap onto another level with a structure and a routine that puts your closer to your desired result, be it joy of running, distance you want to run, or your goal time in a race.

Yes, I do have a problem with ‘Just go out and run’ approach, for every runner.

Whether you are a runner who runs for its awe or a serious runner with a specific time goal, I don’t think yo should just go out and run. It’s the most unresponsible, terrible advice you could give to anyone for running.

Would you advise your friend Chuck, who is a couch-potato and has never run more than 10 seconds in his life, except his dash to toilets sometimes, to just go out and run?

Would you guess that Mo Farah or Kenyans just go out for a run?

Legendary Prefontaine didn’t, and you shouldn’t.

Just going out for a run does not produce joy of running consistently, nor
does it produce outcomes you desire.

Find out two simple things you need to know before going out for a run, whether you are a beginner or a serious runner in my next post.

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Earth from the moon

In Myths to live by, Joseph Campbell celebrates one of the most thrilling moments of humanity, that is, walking on the moon.

Campbell writes, “That fabulous color photograph of our good earth rising as a glorious planet above a silent landscape is something not to forget.”

And he invites readers to the that feeling of awe by borrowing two lines from Giuseppe Ungaretti’s poetry:

Che fai tu, Terra, in ciel?

Dimmi, che fai, Silenzios Terra?

What are you doing, Earth, in heaven?

Tell me, what are  you doing, Silent Earth?

I have never been outside of Earth’s atmosphere, but a tiny portion of humanity had been there, and they describe this feeling of awe, induced by observing Earth in the space, as The Overview Effect: a cognitive shift in awareness reported by some astronauts and cosmonauts during spaceflight, often while viewing the Earth from orbit or from the lunar surface (Wikipedia).

 

In the video, David Loy, philosopher, talks about self transcendence and realizatino of interconnectedness in such moment:

“To have that experience of awe is, at least for the moment, to let go of yourself, to transcend the sense of separation. So it’s not just that they were experiencing something other than them, but they were at some very deep level integrating, realizing their interconnectedness with that beautiful blue-green ball.”

And even watching the video gives you a sobering feeling of self-transcendence and feeling of interconnectedness. It really puts things into perspective, and makes you wonder about your life as a human on this tiny yet ‘beautiful blue-green ball’ that weaves wondrous web of life. Listening to the astronauts speaking about their overview effect makes me so jealous that I even forget I am jealous, and I say, “Wow, I am happy that these people had such experience in their life, and can tell us about it. This is amazing.”

Maybe, vicariously, I am having the overview effect as well.

Recently, I met few alien friends. They told me that, few decades ago, while on their journey around Universes, they accidentally landed on our moon, saw Earth, and thus paid a visit, and stayed until now.

They made a painting to celebrate Earth Day and their time on Earth so far, and they are writing thank-you notes to their friends on Earth and back at home.

http://www.facebook.com/kobemoeto

I myself have never been outside of Earth’s atmosphere, but I hope I will be there before I pass away. Until then, I am going to celebrate my Earth Day writing Thank-You letters to my friends, family, and coworkers, although it can sometimes feel very awkward like below.

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Happy Earth Day to y’all 🙂

Links:

Myths to live by

Overview effect

Join my alien friends on writing thank-you notes (and even donating 1% of your income this month)

Earth

Are birds freer than you?

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Birds flying to rooftop bar to drink some beer after a tough day of work at sea; photo credit to Kee Straver (flickr)

At one moment or another, we’ve all felt jealousy towards birds.

‘Damn, I wish I can be those birds right now. Fly away to Maldives and drink some Mojitos and listen to the waves…’

Today was a tough day at work for me, and I was thinking just that, looking at the birds flying above me. I was like,

‘… You luck birds! Take me too, take me!’

But this time, I didn’t just stop there, being jealous. I actually thought about,

‘Are they really freer than me?’

And I realized that is not quite true, and that I shall rejoice in my own freedom that is bigger than freedom of any birds on this planet.

Becuase, it’s not like a bird comes up with an idea and say,

“Hey y’all, what about building a huge tower of stones so we can knock out these humans who cut off our trees?”

And the rest of the group goes,

“What a fabulous idea! You are genius. Let’s do stone them!!”

And they all fly up, look for stones, and build these towers to stone all the tree-cutters.

I do knot know much about birds, but I doubt that’s what they think about and communicate to each other.

A bit more probable picture might look like this:

“Guys it’s my ass is freezing around here, aren’t yours too?? I think it’s time to move South and find new home for some months.”

“Good call, let’s do it.”

What birds do – eating, flying, deciding where to build their houses, etc. – are all conditioned responses to the their immediate physical environment that are built in their DNA through years and years of evolution.

And as much as I love gorgeous birds that can fly, I don’t think they ever have moments of intuition like: “Mm… if I can get together hundreds of my friends, we could feast on this human living alone in the woods!”

If they could, we won’t have Warden or not much of Zen buddhism in this world, which would be a tragedy.

And I think that’s because birds are not capable of imagining a different way of living than the way their ancestors did.

However, a human is capable of holding a vision that had never appeared in any of her ancestors consciousness.

The decisions we humans make are part derived from our observation of the immediate physical world, and part derived by our reflection and imagination upon it.

And most of the time, innovation and fun things happen when these two things are fused together in our mind, not just one day or a week, but consistently for a sustained period of time.

Although we can’t physically fly, we fly far higher dimensions in our mind.

So, in a sense, I think we are far more free than birds.

We can observe what’s in front of us, and imagine a different story, other possibilities, test them, find what works to bring that better story into our lives, and share with others.

So let us ask, what vision do I see? What will I make and share?

 

Dinner for your mind tonight: Who are you trying to please?

It’s 5:15 in the morning, and my alarm clock bangs my head like thunderstorm.

My eyes don’t open easily, they are weak and a bit dry.

I only slept 3 hours, after more than 5 hours being on the train and meeting an important person for work (thankfully, he turned out to be a wonderful dude. We had a great time eating Korean BBQ, talking about renewable energy, climate change, football, rugby, and so on). But I was still tired and my bed feels like heaven.

But I get up, because I need to go back to my workplace. I reserved 6:05 bus, and that will take me to work right on time.

I am technically on ‘business trip’ for the day in my work system, but my duties are done. I could easily sleep in and report back to my work late afternoon, but there are works to be done. But mainly, I want to come back to my workplace and show my boss that I am responsible. I imagine his smile and few pats on my back, and telling me how good it feels to have someone like me working for him.

When I come back, I find out my boss is not even in the office as he is on a business trip to another city. Whole day I am not productive and cranky because I didn’t get enough sleep. I don’t get much done, and I don’t even get to see my boss for the entire day. Later in the afternoon, he comes back, but simply gives me a nod and walks in the office talking on the phone.

That’s when it hit me that I was just trying to please him, when I should have asked myself what would be the best way to put me into the best state to do my work efficiently and right. I wanted to be seen working hard, rather than doing it right.

Mm.

Oh well. For today, that was that.

‘Pat, pat.’

I give myself that. Because I learned a good lesson.

Trying to please someone doesn’t really accomplish anything.

You either show up and do a good job, or your showing won’t matter as much as you want it to be.

 

A Zen master’s surprisingly simple method to overcome lethargy (or complacency): STARVE!

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Pomnyum Sunim. His words are wise and applicable. (photo credit to: well.hani.co.kr)

Recently, I have been struggling with actually sitting down and working on projects that I want to work on. After +8 hours of work at office, a dinner, and warm shower, the last thing I wanted to do was actually operating my brain and doing something. I’ve already ‘worked’ more than 8 hours today, I am getting a pay-check next week, my stomach is full, and I am warm. I am complacent.

But I made a promise to myself that I will work on these projects, because I really want to get them going.

So, after a warm shower and my stomach is full, I sit and open my laptop, with mild enthusiasm.

And I say to myself, ‘Oh, I actually need to message my friend A on Facebook… it won’t take more than 5 minutes.’ So I would go on Facebook, and next thing I know, I am reading statuses and watching videos, and on youtube. I haven’t messaged my friend A, of course, and it’s past midnight. It’s another full-time work day tomorrow,  so I better go to sleep. I feel bad about myself for not writing a story. I complain about long hours at work. I promise I will write for at least 30 minutes.

But the vicious cycle repeats.

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<+8 hours of work – home – full dinner – warm shower – complacency>

And while there is nothing wrong with being complacent with having a full-time job that feeds myself and puts roof over my head, I want to continue writing a story I am working on, learn to draw, and read on virtual reality, dark matter and other books that fuel my brain and mind.

 

So I turn to Zen Buddhism.

I am a fan of Zen master’s teachings because they offer practical advices on life.

After a few minutes of web-surfing, I find one.

[A twenty-something Korean male asks Pomnyum Sunim, a Zen master from South Korea, during Q&As of his public talks:

“There are times in my life where I cannot get out of feeling lethargic. I feel lifeless and feel like I don’t want to do anything. It usually goes for a day, and in worst times, even for a week. How shall I get out of or treat it? I am curious how you would go about it.”]

It’s about lethargy, which is a bit different from my own problem, complacency, but similar. Both states represent inactivity and passive state of mind. Both states are completely opposite of a state in which you are in tune with infinite source of energy for your desire. So I read on.

[Pomnyun Sumin smiled and said:

“[When I was about your age,] for really tough and heavy lethargic feelings, I didn’t eat. When you starve about more than 5 days, your body says ‘I gotta do something so I can eat something’ and tries to survive. Desire to survive is the best method to overcome lethargy. Lethargy comes to you only when you are full, not when you are hungry.” (audience laughs)]

‘Huh!’

I was surprised by the simplicity and intuition in it, so I decided to try it on the weekdays (I usually come home on the weekends, and I know I would not be able to say NO to my mom’s homemade food. Also, for every sacrifice, it is wise to give yourself some rewards. So I have let myself go completely nuts on the weekends – chocolates, rice-cakes, sweet potatoes, vanila ice cream + carrot cake + nuts and seeds and on and on… – and that had be fun and good inspiration to keep myself honest during the weeks).

So, for past two weeks, for weekdays only, I replaced my dinner with a warm glass of milk (protein + fat) + honey (sugar + minerals) + bean powder (for extra protein). Some days, I didn’t even have that. I drank some water and didn’t eat any solid or liquid food.

I also inserted an exercise: a 30min run or slow pull-ups (20~40 reps, divided into any number of sets I feel like that day) right in there, because I just set up pull-bar thing on my doorwall and I felt like I should make some use of it.

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new routine that works for me, adding exercise and replacing full dinner with meagre or no food

And I am very happy with the results so far.

After exercise, I take shower, make my glass of dinner, and sit down. I feel light and not dull. My mind is crystal clear and calmly active. I let the laptop closed until I know how I want to use my one precious evening hour (or two, when I’m lucky).

I decide in my mind whether I want to write, draw, or read. I drink, and I just do what I decided to do for the evening.

At 10PM, my phone gives off an alarm. It’s time to go lay on my yoga matt and stretch my hips. After that, I feel the hunger. I go to bed with a bit of that, and I imagine that byte of my egg sandwich in the morning. Yum.

I fall into sleep faster, and I sleep better. Because I can feel increased energy and just lighter mind and body. It’s incredible.

My morning routine – writing and 10 minute breathing – comes to me easier. My breakfast had never tasted so amazing and I am ready to go for the day!

Okay that was a lot of… what not.

I encourage you to give it a try a few days this week, if you have been feeling lethargic, dull, or struggling to work on personal projects after your full-time job hours (which is not easy, but worth it, as you know).

What surprising tricks do you use to keep your mind clear and light when it’s difficult to do? Do you have your own ways to shatter that feeling of lethargy?

I’d love to learn from you. Please share in the comments (and any other feedback).

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Bonus:

Below is a full excerpt of Pomnyum Sunim’s answer that I translated into English. I tried to minimize paraphrasing, but there is always limitation in translation.

I enjoyed reading and translating, though, and I hope you enjoy it as well.

The original excerpt was in Korean, and you can find it here.

Pomnyum Sumin in a Q&A session at one of his public talks.

Twenty-something male:

There are times in my life where I cannot get out of feeling lethargic. This feeling where I feel lifeless and feel like I don’t want to do anything usually goes for a day, and in worst times, even for a week. How shall I get out of or treat it? I am curious how you would go about it.

Pomnyum Sunim:

“It depends on every person but when I was in my twenties, this is what I did when I felt lethargic. When I feel sluggish, I would go to tombs of General Kim Yoo-Shin or King Muyeol of Silla, close my eyes, and lay quietly [Sung: They are big names in the history of Sila, one of three countries that were occupying land of Korea in 600s].

What I would do was, with my eyes closed and laying there, just imagining lives of these individuals, that happened more than 1,300 years ago, as if I am in a movie. Then, I see that what was once considered good at that time, is not necessarily considered good now. There are many instances in the history where a break-up from a loved one turned out for the better, or what’s considered to be failure at the time serves an individual an opportunity that eventually led to bigger rewards. Just reflecting on the past events and historic figures helped me build awareness of myself and  see my current life events from different perspectives.

Light sluggishness, I could solve like that. But for really tough and heavy lethargic feelings, I didn’t eat. When you starve about more than 5 days, your body says ‘I gotta do something so I can eat something’ and tries to survive. Desire to survive is the best method to overcome lethargy. Lethargy comes to you only when you are full, not when you are hungry. (audience laughs).

I am just talking about my experience here. When you are hungry and a thought ‘I might die’ comes to you, a thought ‘I want to die’ does not occur to you. Thoughts like ‘I want to live’ emerge. You climb up a mountain to jump off a cliff and kill yourself, but just before your jump a tiger appears. Then, you don’t go ‘Well, fantastic. I was about to die, so eat me tiger.’ You will go ‘Ahh!! Someone help me!’ and run away. When you are about to kill yourself and a bomb explodes nearby, you will run. (audience laughs)

Feeling lethargic is a problem that you are conscious of, while desire to live is a problem of survival, of life or death. Every consciousness is based on survival and life. In other words, desire for survival is closer to the root. So when your mind is lethargic, you can kill yourself. You can kill others or yourself. If you kill someone else that’s a murder, yourself, that’s a suicide, and that happens when your mind is broken a bit. But when your own very survival is at serious risk, such torpidity disappears. I am just talking about my experience. I do not know much about you or other people.

So, based on my experience, what if you starved a bit? I tried this. When I starved for 4 to 5 days, I didn’t think ‘I shall live!’. My body automatically goes, ‘I got to live.’ Lethargy is gone.

Well, one time I wanted to test the limit of body. Not to overcome lethargy, but there are many North Koreans that starve to death and I was indifferent to that fact. So I thought ‘How can I eat my meals when they are starving to death?’ and fasted for 30 days. Recently, I did it once in 2008. A news of thousands of North Koreans dying from hunger came out. I didn’t eat for 70 days. But I did not die.

Even when you don’t eat for 70 days, you don’t die. However, when you fast, you got to have a clear mind. Everyday activities are no problem, but if you do strenuous physical activities or get fiercely angry, you use up your energy quickly. You maintain equanimity and fast, there is no problem in everyday activities. While I was fasting, however, I couldn’t speak much so public talks were a bit difficult. After 49 days, my energy decreased abruptly, so I only meditated and fasted. Because when you mediate, you don’t use up much energy.

Another thing is when we talk of fasting, we tend to think your body does not eat anything. But when you fast, your body consumes pure 300grams lean meat. What do I mean? Body eats its own lean meat. So fasting is not vegetarianism but a meat diet. When you weight yourself, it decreases quickly in the first three days, because you are emptying your intestines. Then, 300 grams decrease daily. There is small differences depending on how much water you drink. So I came to understand my body needs about 300 grams of lean meat to maintain my body temperature and go about my day.

But when I only did meditation, my body weight decreased by only 200 grams, and with more meditation, only 150 grams per day. When you use your brain it consumes a lot of energy, but during meditation you don’t use your brain or talk to anyone, so some energy is saved and I lost less weight.

When I fast, I like to see what happens to my body, and then what happens to my mind. Some people study ‘What do you eat when you fast? When do you start eating again?’ but I don’t. What different ways of fasting would there be? You just don’t eat anything. But how to eat again is a problem. It is best for you to see how your own body reacts to the food coming in, how appetite arises, how your state of energy and mind change, how your psychology changes, what makes you get diarrhoea or feel uncomfortable, how the amount of food increases, and so on.

Considering your age, I think you will be fine after about 5 days of fasting. When lethargy comes, it is best to eat nothing. Feeling lethargic means you do not want to live. Then other than taking pills or jumping off, you can try dying by not eating and see what happens. (audience laughs out loud)

When your consciousness is seized by lethargy and you take your life with pills or other means, it is irreversible. But when you fast, it takes a while for your body to die and you get to re-evaluate your life slowly, and that energy of ‘Shit, I want to live’ will come back. If there is better method, I encourage you to find one and try it for yourself.

Twenty-something male:

Thank you.

 

 

 

Dinner for your mind tonight: Imagination or consumption

I live in Korea, where internet speed is reaching nearly 1GB/sec.

That’s a HD movie right in front of you in less than 2 seconds.

It makes consuming contents and information crafted by other people so easy. Grab your phone, swipe, touch, swipe, touch, swipe.

But constantly feeding mind with information that had been already filtered by other people can make your mind dull and reactive.

What’s really in front of us – a man hurriedly rushing to catch a train, a child skipping to his home, a mom kindly looking at her babies – might seem boring and ordinary. Where your mind wanders to when it is not attending to anything, could be chaotic and so random. But from simply observing seemingly ordinary and boring moments or giving your mind some space, curiosity kicks in with a phrase: ‘What if…?’

And you start imagining ideas and different worlds. You start crafting your own stories that might trigger positive and warm waves in people’s lives and trying them.

And I think that is pretty exciting and fun.